As many of you know, I have been thoroughly enjoying my time with my almost one-year old granddaughter, Penelope. She is a daily reminder of the miracle of life. Watching her explore, develop, and learn is endlessly fascinating. I lose track of time when I am playing with her.
One of the great things about being a grandparent are the memories that resurface from when I raised my own children, Keaton and Matthew. Mary and I now find ourselves constantly saying, “Remember that time when Keaton…” or “It was so funny when Matthew…” It seems like those moments just happened yesterday, instead of 20+ years ago.
I was thinking about this recently as I work through THE NEXT CHAPTER. That is the reference everyone uses, The Next Chapter, when referring to the unknown direction my life will take following my departure from Equity Risk. It is as if The Next Chapter is an actual being – “How’s it going with The Next Chapter?”; “What’s up with The Next Chapter?”; I can’t wait to meet The Next Chapter!”
When he was little, Matthew was incredibly independent. He always had to try new things and he had to figure them out for himself. Mary and I would watch him struggle with something and, like all parents, tried to help him out. He would respond with a very loud and direct, “I can do it” that came out as “I CAN DOOOOO EEEEET!”
I can appreciate that sentiment now more than ever. Having built a business from the ground up that was financed, in part, by using our house as collateral, I used that phrase A LOT! The only difference between me and Matthew is that he shouted it to anyone who tried to help him, and I whispered it to myself when I did not know where to turn next.
As I explore my options for “TNC”, I have reflected on what, exactly, was the fundamental draw and excitement about building Equity Risk. I have determined that it was the fear of failure. Betting your house is a powerful motivator. I never felt more alive than when I had “bet it all”. Now, the challenge is how to replicate that feeling this go ‘round, since the last bet paid off and that form of motivation is not the same.
I have concluded that the fear of failure needs to be replaced with a vertical learning curve. Success and achievement do not end with your first accomplishment or taste of victory. You need to continue to push yourself and challenge yourself to test your limits. I don’t want something that will just get me out a bed in the morning. No, I want something so challenging that it will keep me from going to bed at night!
I was approached the other day by some investors that were interested in having me replicate the success we had with Equity Risk. As I considered the offer (legal obligations notwithstanding), I thought “This will work; This will make a lot of money; I know how to do this; I could do it in my sleep.” Then, it hit me. I had my answer. If I can “do it in my sleep”, it is certainly not a challenge that will keep me from “going to bed at night.”
So, I will keep looking. I encourage you to keep looking, too. If you can “do it in your sleep”, then you are sleeping through life. You have no idea what you can accomplish if you just keep trying new things – you may learn to tie your shoes, or brush your teeth, or cut your food, or pour your own milk from the big, gallon carton… or, start the business / career / relationship of your dreams. Once I find that opportunity – the one that will keep me up at night – you can rest assured that I will jump into it with 100% commitment secure in the knowledge that I Can DOOOOO EEEEET!